I get out of the car walk down the indoor parking lot and head towards the elevator. I make sure I memorize the parking area lot number 2. I see the elevator and next to it is an outdoor spiral stairs. Theresa and I take the elevator to the first floor and walk through a brick pavement on a dark evening. My combat boots has holes in the heel so when I walk it makes a clicking noise. I pass by two smokers in the designated smoking area. The building is being renovated; its covered with fences and cones and there a giant ditches on the ground. We accidentally went to the closed off entrance. We turn around and follow an arrow that says registration. As we enter the building the automatic doors open for us and on the left there was a smiley middle aged white lady at the front desk. I forgot what her name was but I remember  the name tag saying "volunteer." Theresa said my grandpa is here his name is Jae Kim. She said there are two Jae Kim. Theresa said Jae Sun Kim. She wrote the floor number and room number on a small piece of paper and directed us to the elevator. "Go to your right, walk straight, and when you see the blue gift shop turn right." We followed her instructions and saw the "Main elevators" sign. We waited for the elevator to come and when the doors opened one of us pressed the button "7." A mother and daughter joined us. The little girl looked around 7 or 8 and she had brown curly hair. She was wearing a purple jacket. She had a big smile with her lips as she looked at me and then looked at Theresa. Then she looked at me again still smiling. I smiled back. They get off at the third floor. When we reach the seventh floor the doors slide open and I automatically see my Grandma, and my aunt Wendy on the blue cushioned chairs in front of me. She stood up. She gave me a hug and said "do you want to see Grandpa? She was wearing a jeans and a jean jacket. She told me only two people can see him at a time." We both said yes. Grandma lead the way and we passed by patients rooms. One of them I saw was empty. Then she pressed the automatic door and the doors didn't open like you would expect. The doors opened in opposite directions. "Room 716" she said. When we got closer I began to cry; I couldn't hold my tears. She said, "you don't want Grandpa to see you crying in Korean." Theresa went in first. The first person we saw my Dad. He was in a suit like he always is with a dull yellow tie. I saw my Grandpa. He eyes were closed. My Dad touched his hand to let him know we were here. I couldn't stop crying. Theresa was crying too. He opened his eyes. There were blue tubes connected to his mouth to a machine and cords connected to his body. He needed it to breathe and every time he took a breath I could hear it through the tubes. He looked at me and saw me crying. His eyes were half way opened and when he saw me crying I can see the insides of his eyes getting watery. My dad kept saying "you're doing good, you better than yesterday." My grandpa nodded. My dad said a bunch a things about what happened to him and how he's better than before and he nodded again. That's all he could do. Nod. I touched his fingers. I stroked them with mine. They were so soft and so fragile. He closed his eyes. I can still see him blinking under his eyelids. My dad said to me and Theresa let's get you guys some food.

He's still in the hospital.

I'm know for a terrible memory but this is something that I will never forget.

I love you Grandpa.

People are never satisfied.
When you are ugly, you wish you were pretty,
When you're really pretty, you really wish people will see you for your smarts,
When you're really smart, you wish you can understand other people's stupid jokes,
When you're really stupid, you wish people will take you more seriously
When you're taken too seriously, you wish people will see your "chill"side
The only way for your chill side to show is when there is no school work and summer comes.
When summer comes, you wish school started again.

This is the last year of school!Enjoy it my lovelies.


The only thing they don't complain is when they are happy.